Thank you for speaking to my heart through other people. Thank you for giving them gifts with words that tie perfectly together and become a vessel of hope and inspiration for broken people all over the world. Thank you for knowing me and loving me, especially when people in this world see those same things you see and decide to turn their backs and walk away. Thank you for loving me with a love that I will never be able to reciprocate or even fully comprehend. Thank you for putting your song in my heart and your heart in my blemished, broken and far-less-than-perfect body. Thank you knitting me together intimately and personally enough to not make one single other person on this planet exactly like me. But instead you made me, and only me.
Thank you for breathing life into me and giving me this overwhelming urge and desire to live for something so much bigger than myself. For giving me the desire to live bigger and bolder in this lifetime than some people dare to even dream about. Some times I struggle with knowing exactly what it is that you want me to be. What is the exact story that you have scripted so personally for me? I don’t know right now, but the beautiful thing is that I am destined and determined to figure it out. All the little things that make me, me are like little light bulbs waiting to be strung together for a greater purpose to light up the world and expose its true beauty. It’s waiting for the overwhelming power to light up the darkness and even have enough light to shine when the sun is up, too. And I know that in the mean time, while you watch me figure it out, you give me little clues along the way that make the picture that much more promising, while you are smiling down with the biggest smile because you can see what’s to come.
But until I figure that out, I will keep searching, and I will keep shining the things I do know to be true about myself. I will keep seeking out what exactly it is you are calling me to be. And for some reason I have this funny feeling that I will never know exactly what it is while I am still breathing on this Earth and it won’t all finally make sense until you have called me Home. The strings of lights won’t be completed until I am dancing with you in Heaven. But what I do know now, is that nothing else will matter except how much of a blessing I was for you on this Earth and for everyone else that surrounds me. Everything may be uncertain now, but I am a child of God and that is the only thing I know to be true. It holds promise and excitement for the amazing story that is yet to come. And for that I am eternally grateful.
Every so often we come across something that inspires us. Whether it be a person, a song, a moment in time… whatever. But it inspires us. It inspires us to do something different with our lives or maybe even make a difference in someone else’s. It inspires us to try something we may not have thought to try to before, or take a risk and do that thing that you have always wanted to do, but just never really decided to make time for. A lot of these moments have been happening to me over the past few months. I have suddenly felt overcome with a wave (or multiple for that matter) of self realizations, new found passions and hard lessons learned about life, love and what it truly means to have faith in God. These are things that are growing me up and probably turning me into the person that I am supposed to be.
Lately I have been inspired by God’s pursuit of me. God’s pursuit of everyone, really. How He relentlessly comes after us day after day, nonstop until He has us in His arms. But even still we will never be good enough, we will never be at that point where God feels like He can stop pursuing us. He will always want more, more, and more of us. With every breath we take and every step we take, He wants it. He wants all of it because He loves us that much and I could only imagine that it makes Him so happy whenever we give into the chase and rest soundlessly in His arms. It’s the same way I desire to be pursued by a man some day, and it’s the same way I desire to pursue the things that I love. Now, I understand that it’s impossible to find that same perfect pursuit from another human, or even engage in that perfect pursuit myself, but I would love to love something so much that I just can’t get enough of it. So now I find myself here . . .
Over the past year or so I have discovered a new love for basically anything creative; painting, photography and writing just to name a few, which is part of the reason why I decided to start this blog. With all the lessons learned, thoughts and realizations that run through my head on a daily basis I figured I might as well jot some of them down and share my “wisdom” with anyone that is gracious enough to read it. I have to admit, I had hesitations about starting this because I can’t help to think to myself, “Omg Corinna no is going to read this” and I might be right, but chances are that I am wrong. So I’m going to take the risk and do it anyways, and from this day forward, I vow to relentlessly pursue all the things that I love; and I think you should too. So, with all that being said, my blog has begun today. But, please bear with me as I get started, I am definitely not an English major and I can promise I will make some punctuation and grammar errors probably in every single post. Sooo, sorry in advance if it offends anyone, I ain’t perfect! But I also promise it will get cooler when I start actually writing about my experiences and putting up pictures of things that capture inspiring moments in my life. All cool things gotta start somewhere right? Right. So here’s my attempt at being funny/meaningful/inspiring all at the same time. I’m thinking one post a week, every Sunday, so feel free to check back in then if you would like. Thanks for giving me your time and I hope you enjoy a little snap shot of my crazy life.